Sunday, June 26, 2005

I PASSED!

Finally! 2 weeks worth of continuous reading and memorizations finally paid off! I passed the NJ's driver's knowledge exam, probably the hardest part of getting a license. "Putangina nyo magkakalicensya nako! Lalayas nako sa bahay na to!" Getting the road test won't be a problem at all, ive been driving in the phil for 5 years now and i tell ya, the road here ain't nothin like manila. They say that if you're able to drive in manila you can make it here for sure, i agree with that. I'll just have to stick to the basics then and uhm... get rid of the cuts, overtakes, swerving, using the horn too much.. uh.. what else, oh yeah no signal on turns, beating the red light.. yeah i guess that's it, just have to get rid of those and i'm all set :D geez, i just realized my bad habbits.

i swear, passing this exam really meant a lot for me. everyone keeps on pressuring me to study and my aunt, she's very disappointed with my studying habbits. fuck, i don't even remember studying in college at all! it's all about skill and deadlines... like i said, it felt really good. it's like this heavy feeling suddenly went loose and now i feel so relaxed and FREE! since i came here to the states, my aunts were pressuring me, getting a work, and they keep tellin me with my laid back attitude, nothings gonna happen. i know they mean well, somehow they still support me, but i guess i hate being pressured by other people. oh man, they even teamed up with my dad, now that's really fucked up. well look at me now, i got a job, i passed the exam, i look good(haha) and i got money! so there, ang sarap isalpak sa mukha nyo! ooh, did i just said that? hehehe

i know it's not gonna end here, right now ive been pressured to turn the damn computer because it's 10PM and she wants her kids to sleep early. btw, 9 pm is lights in this fuckin place. such a lonely place to live in.

peace \m/

Saturday, June 18, 2005

I failed the exam! %%^#$%%^^#$

Just a few hours ago i took the driver's license written exam. Like i said, I failed! Passing grade is 40/50, and my score is 39!! Damn! i missed just 1 point! 1 f*ckin point! This is so embarassing, the 1st time my sister took it she passed comfortably. Shit, and to think that she's never driven out of tahanan village. Well, i guess that goes the same for my dad, coz he took the exam 3 times already! I hope don't end up like that, somethings gotta happen on my 2nd take or else i'd be damn screwed just like my dad. *sigh*

This isn't a good week for me, work-wise. I've been loaded w/ a lot of sh*t, deadlines here, deadlines there to the point where i don't even know where to start. Thing is, 1 of our graphic artist resigned to accomplish a Master's Degree, so now im doing his job. It's pretty tough. there are other things i still need to learn and now im responsible someone elses duties. I do hope they find a replacement quickly, or else i wont be able to do these things on my own, no matter how hard try. Worse, a superior approached me yesterday and told me to work faster. god, if they only know how much shit i've got to do. Now i can relate to those people saying that no matter how hard they work, they're still being told to do better. it sucks but i guess its part of the corporate world and i guess it'll get better soon, atleast im gettin' paid for it.

Social life? still nothing. no friends unfortunately. it's just me and my y.m. my guitar? geez i have no idea when it'll get a taste of an amp and full distortion. i swear im gonna die lonely here.

peace \m/

Saturday, June 11, 2005

In search of others...

I spent my last three weeks, looking... looking for filipinos godammit! where the hell are you mother fuckers. everytime i look around the train station all i see are curry-smelling indians and marimar look-alike hispanics! where mah peoplez at!? could you help me look for filipinos!? i know theyre hiding somewhere... where the hell are they!?

i always thought that in every corner of this cruel world there'd be atleast 1 filipino standing in it... guess i was wrong there, however... as i continue the search, i just realized... Ako na pala yun...

peace \m/