What i love about this place

i never liked america, i never wanted to live here. i dont like the culture, i dont like the people. however, there are some exceptions... hehe

yeah i know the view is pretty nasty having a lot of humungous sexy babes n' fast fancy cars, but aside from that theres more! I being an aspiring cd collector, have found my own personal haven - the FYE record store! this place is the sh*t man! its got all the records you'll ever need! from the old school grunge-metal era to the new school emo-punk! just name the genre, lahat pare andito! sevendust, soundgarden, tool, finch, janes addiction, jeff buckley, anthrax, led zeppelin, bsta lahat pare! pati mga 1st albums meron! hehe! Now i have a reason to be happy here! but despite all that, nothing beats the everyday life of pinas... its definitely an adventure. and ofcourse i still miss grace.. :(

i got blinded and without hesitation i just took whatever cd i could get my hands on, ive been looking for these cds all my life and i finally have them in my small collection... 4 cds costs a lot and you dont wanna know how much i spent. let's just say ive no more cash for the rest of the year.. so i'd better find work as soon as possible not only to buy cds but to fund me in going back home! i wanna go home! please take me home! :(

heres the list:
1. A Perfect Circle - Mer De Noms
2. Jeff Buckley - Grace (yihee)
3. Goo goo Dolls - A boy named goo
4. Smashing pumpkins - Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness

Astig pare! I like!

peace \m/

Holy Mother of God... Mara has a blog!

Yes, yes, yes, my cousin mara has a blog! what a surprise! welcome to the world of gossip, chicka, intrigues, issues, tampohan, kasiyahan and pagmamahalan... nge?!

"lonely... i am so lonely... i am so lonely... here on my own...!"

ah tangina gusto ko nang umuwi ng pinas!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!! :(

Good Morning America!

I was planning to blog about my 1st sunrise here in New Jersey, due to depression however i couldn't write a single word about it. being here already tears me apart and writing something about my "new home" will make it even worse. i sure do miss the philippines and on my third day here im already dead homesick. all the memories flashed back in an instant and im just dying to go home. :( now i can totally relate to my cousins who went before me, the 1st few months here is indeed very, very, VERY lonely!!! awww man! i just wanna go home right now! i miss everything filipino! tangina.

This trip was really the worse time to leave... I was doing well in Toon City, the band was going great, grace n i were happy, and now everything taken away from me... I am aware that life here is more convenient and i know that work here pays 3x or 5x times more, but that ain't enough to buy me happiness. They say that in time i'll adjust, but it'll never be the same. Nothing here will replace the memories i had back at home... I miss brooklyn pizza, i miss mayrics, freedom bar, sinangag express, san mig light and ryan marifosque (hahaha). I miss the humid weather, the tennis courts, the forvever-increasing gasoline rates and the fishball, kikiams n siopao. I miss school, work, the tindera who had a crush on me sa isang turo turo and megamall. I miss my friends, my band and ofcourse you grace... :(

haaay...

peace \m/

Last gig with Amethyst

Last night was my last gig with amethyst. :(

Well, it didn't start off right coz' i was late... again... what's new? maiinit nanaman ang ulo ni carlo, but thats ok, it's all good were cool. :) hehehe and because of that our slot was moved and unfortunately we were the last band. come to think of it, in our 1st performance we were the last band as well! those were the "soul tonic" days, and damn memories flashed back just like that. From the late night jams at jihan's place to the stomach filling food trips at tropical hut and burger. From the day carlo took his shirt off outside ksp grille to the day Jan and i were walking outside megamall all drunk and wasted trying to make it to a gig, this ain't funny people, i almost died back then! i almost got run over by a freakin' bus!

While playing i was pretty sad, the fact that its my last gig and i may not have an opportunity to play with another band when i get to states. so i savored the joy and definitely i'll never forget the experience and the memories. I just wish all the luck for the band i know they'll make it someday, these people are talented and dedicated. once they find the right guitarist, im pretty sure they'll make heads bang. Bang bang bang bang bang!!! i'd like to thank grace for being there, for giving us support, you rawk pare! mwah :p

peace \m/

"Halik sa Hangin, Haplos sa Pisngi"

"Halik sa hangin, haplos sa pisngi" those were the words from the song "Hangin" and i can't get it off my head. Its an original of ours (one of our best-est too) written by mabel and right now i can so f*ckin relate to the song, well some of the words i guess, hehehe. whenever i hear it, it just makes me depressed even more. i wanted to post it here, but i dont know the lyrics and am too lazy to write it down while listening... this song sucks man. hahah *hanlabo*

and it is confirmed, my fam and i are leaving for the states... for good. april 24's the date and i got less than two weeks to do all the bad, good and dirty shit. i'll definitely miss the philippines, talaga nmang walang ganyan sa states!

peace \m/

Ating Subaybayan!!

Di ko akalaing sinusubaybayan ni Grace ang aking munting blog o live journal mula Dec 2003 pa! Sabi ko na eh, crush na crush mo ko dati pa!! yiheeee!!! hehe!

peace \m/

Why?? Part tres...

Bakit ba ang maliligayang araw ay napakabilis lumipas... ikanga eh kakasimula mo plang eh di mo alam patapos na pla. Bakit ba? kung kelan ka naman inis eh napakatagal bago maalis, ika'y nagsasawa ika'y nasusuka na. at eto pa, bukod sa pagiging masaya, di nawawala ang mga maligno na umaaligid upang sirain ito. mag-ingat ka at baka matuluyan ka nang mawalan ng kasiyahan. ano ba pinagsasabi ko? for me to know and you to find out. ngunit meron siguro mga ibang nilalang dyan na makaka-intindi at relate sa akin.

yun lang po. magandang gabi sa inyong lahat.

peace \m/