Sucky Friday!

It's 3:54 a.m. Saturday, obviously i've been attacked by insomnia... again. Wow great timing, just when i needed sleep most here i am back at the pc trying to drain my brain cells. Somehow i don't feel worn out or fatigued despite the stressful friday i've had. In fact, i even drank a few cans of beers with some friends! what the hell, alcohol failed on me this time. Well, at least im not alone, a few minutes ago jihan(another insomniac) texted me that she couldnt bring her car at the jam. So this means were commuting and were gonna carrying a shit load of stuff. (guitars, effects, AMPs?)

Well i guess the reason i couldn't sleep is because im being paranoid about not making it in the qualifying exam i had in toei animation yesterday. it was our last day at navel arts academy for bg training and we were all scheduled for the exam at eastwood. out of 15 students only 8 will be accepted for the ojt program. right now im desperately praying that i'd be the 8th person atleast! god, what a stressful day. from school we made it to toei around 130, we were scheduled 2 o'clock. based on the exam description given to us by the hr of toei, we were expecting to do bg's of One Piece(series) with a time limit which would last around 30 mins to an hour or so. however, when we sat down on the pc's they gave us a rough sheet of backgrounds which has not been cleaned up nor rendered! this is bad, really bad! this means an extra load for us! don't tell me were suppose to do the clean-up artist's job!? this eats up another 1-2hrs of our time and like i said before, it took us hours to paint/render regular backgrounds. and we weren't just given any regular background, they gave us a blow up one where there are many movements such as chase/race scenes. This is bad! given the task i already estimated what time we'll be finished. this is gonna take around 5-7 hrs man, fuck and what time is it? 2:30 pm, shit this means we'll be leaving around nine or so. dammit. and i had other plans in the evening. that bullshit exam caused me a date with a friend! *&^#$@@!!! i was really expecting it to be a short exam, but hell no! given the situation i already said to myself that i may not finish the exam. ive never worked for 7 straight hours even during my college days. there always has to be a gap of 2 hours or so, i dunno but i guess that's how artists really are, were moody and there are times that were completley unproductive. but, like the toei operations manager said, theyre completley destroying our "being an artist". because in this business were required to work and be on-call anytime. this means having to work on late nights, early mornings and sundays as well. we have no choice but to keep on keep on working especially on priority dates or deadlines.

as i predicted, i wasn't able to finish. actually we werent able to finish it. out of 7 students in the 1st batch only 1 of us was able to finish, our super-duper-geek-ass-nerd-looking classmate from UP. hes good. and we don't like him haha. what pissed me off is that their computers sucked, it was pretty damn slow and it kept on hanging! so they transfered me to a new pc where i had to start all over again! take note, thats about an hour wasted. it was already 9 pm and our exam proctor wanted to go home already, so we had no choice but to stop and hope that whatever we finished will be good enough for the evaluation. so far im not proud of my work, and im very disappointed. the time and the pressure of having to make your work look exactly like toei's technique gives you a complete brain drain where you cant work properly and don't know where to start. i just hope the next batch on monday screws up, haha! by tuesday we will be informed of the results, so if you don't recieve a call from toei then its over. shit. after that, being depressed and all, my classmates and i had a few beers. we just had to relax.

i want this job, i couldnt imagine myself being a regular graphic artist again, im done with that. animation is where i wanna be, pray for me guys.

peace \m/